Why I Don’t Care Anymore

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Blogging has become a thing. Not just a thing, but a big thing. There are millions of them and I am just a speck on the face of the blogosphere. Standing out is a challenge and every decission I have made has not been with out great consideration. In fact, maybe too much consideration.
For a while I found myself caught between a rock and a hard place. I wanted to produce quality content and often (too often) I would spend too much time planning and making sure it was the best I could make it; just to suddenly see my bloglovn feed fill up with a sleu of the exact same post I was about to publish. That’s when the doubt would set in. My content was no longer new, no longer original; I’d be branded a copycat.
So many wasted hours on posts that never saw the light of day and I’m left a blog so empty it made me feel like a fraud.
Recently I’ve had a lot happening personally. Things I have no control over. It’s been a bit of a three steps forward on two steps back situation, really. And during this time all I’ve thought about is this blog and my youtube channel and much I wanted to spend time on them and focus on them. But I’ve held back because I couldn’t give it my all.
I’ve been so caught up in trying to make my content “professional” that I’ve forgotten why I started blogging in the first place. A few years ago I would just sit down a knock out a few posts on whatever the hell I wanted to talk about. Until the concept of “Niche Blogging” became a huge deal and made me question everything I was doing. I should have just ignored it and carried on with what made me happy.

I’ve come to a point were I realise how stupid it was to worry about these things. All things that I felt, as a Blogger, I was meant to want; I don’t really care about. While it would be nice to work with brands and get sent review products it’s not something I strive for. I’m not here to sell you things. I’ve been selective and over editing my content to appeal to a demographic I’m not really interested in appealing to.

This blog was always meant to be an extension of me. Share my interest, opinions and talk about things I like. I want to get back to that. I’m done chasing trends and trying to fit my content into a theme. I’m done with trying to be so organised; it’s exhausting.

I will write what I want, when I want. Most of this was written on the fly during my lunch break.
It’s time we got to know each other a bit better. It’s time I introduced myself.

xoxo

  • This is such a refreshing post especially after reading the comment you left on my recent blog post. SO pleased that you’re finding your identity within blogging again and learning to do your own thing. The most important thing is that you enjoy blogging once more!

    Really looking forward to reading your upcoming content!

    The Makeup Directory

    • Laura

      Thanks Sally. It feel like a pressure has been taken off me. I feel like I have more freedom in what i want to post. It’s good to be back!

  • I totally agree with you, blogging has changed so much!! Everyone does it for the fame and money and it really isn’t supposed to be about that!

    Just stay true to yourself babe!

    Kisses,
    BLOG | TAISLANY

    • Laura

      Thank you!